You Don’t Have To Let Go

Sometimes there is that someone that came into our life who makes us realize life won’t ever be the same again. It’s not necessarily because life suddenly becomes perfect for us but because all others become less impressive in comparison. The best love affairs are those that change us without changing our base.

That special someone becomes the compass to keep us pointed in the right direction and suddenly we know, no matter what life brings us, that we will never ever be lost again but only found over and over again. Even when life shows us every reason to give up we just can’t find that part inside of us to just get up and walk the fuck away.

It’s in these moments that our soul takes over and keeps us somewhere because the song just isn’t finished yet. Sometimes the ending of that damn song seems like the whole cd playing on repeat. You gotta keep in mind, no love story is great because things were easy…

It’s not giving up hope even when it seems like the easiest choice because love isn’t about choosing the easy way out but making the choice to do it the hard way. 

 

Because the truth is, there are some people we just won’t ever get over.

Sometimes we find someone so special that we don’t want to walk away, pretending that none of it happened. Sometimes someone leaves an imprint on our lives, and we’ll never forget them. Ever. We know that no matter what life may bring, or who it may bring with it, no one will ever be able to fill that space.

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It’s okay to not give up.

Maybe we don’t really have a choice in it at all because there really are certain people who are meant to be in our lives. Because this time, I just don’t want to get over you.While others could look at me and call me foolish, I don’t see any other way to be because if I actually believe everything I feel how could I? 

And maybe I will be forced to move on but not by my own choice (that’s different) but because sometimes things in life have a funny way of not working out. At least I will know that I stayed true not only to the words inside of my head, but the feelings inside of my heart of hearts. 

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It’s not so much about the other person but instead the journey of learning to trust our hearts. 

When I think about why I don’t want to get over you it’s not because of things you’ve done for me or physical acts you have done but because of how you make me feel. I have lived long enough to know that there are people who only come around once in a lifetime. I also know that you needed to see that I wouldn’t give up on you no matter how far you pushed me. It’s been a tangled journey of a thousand secrets, too many promises—and not enough action.
 
I have to admit that I tried to move on.. I tried to fill your place with others. I met new men, I flirted, I talked with them and I have even allowed myself to lay next to another man. But the problem was even when any of that was happening, I was still thinking of you. Even when we had seemingly gone our separate ways, I still saw you in my thoughts and dreams. So when we came back into each other’s lives I wasn’t really surprised. Because what I’ve come to believe is that when it’s real it stays. No matter the history. 
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And whether this is a problem, or gift, its exactly why I don’t want to get over you.

I hope that out out of all of this we have both taught each other things we can carry with us forever. Maybe the biggest lesson we have learned is that sometimes someone can come into our lives and we will never be the same again. And whether we move on or not it won’t change that. 

Because the thing is, I don’t want to imagine my life without you. Even if I never see you again, I don’t want to go one day not having you part of me. 

So as I sit here and write this, I hope that some day this will all make sense. Maybe someday I will figure out what this was suppose to teach me. Maybe it will lead us to the correct path we are suppose to walk. Who knows.. But what I do know is no matter where it leads me you will always be there.. walking right besides me. Guiding me as I carry you in my heart where you belong.  

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